Year Of Losses
Who's gonna tell you when,
It's too late,
Who's gonna tell you things,
Aren't so great.
You cant go on, thinkin',
Nothings' wrong, but bye,
Who's gonna drive you home,
tonight.?
Who's gonna pick you up,
When You fall?
Who's gonna hang it up,
When you call?
Who's gonna pay attention,
To your dreams?
And who's gonna plug their ears,
When you scream?
You can't go on, thinkin'
Nothings wrong, but bye,
(who's gonna drive you)
(who's gonna drive you)
Who's gonna drive you home, tonight?
(who's gonna drive you home)
(bye baby)
(bye baby)
(bye baby)
(bye baby)
Who's gonna hold you down,
When you shake?
Who's gonna come around,
When you break?
You can't go on, thinkin',
Nothin's wrong, but bye,
(Who's gonna drive you)
(who's gonna drive you)
Who's gonna drive you home, tonight?
(who's gonna drive you home)
Oh, you know you can't go on, thinkin',
Nothin's wrong,
(Who's gonna drive you)
(Who's gonna drive you home)
Who's gonna drive you home, tonight?
(bye baby)
(bye baby)
(bye baby)
The Cars- Drive
This year has been nothing short of catastrophic, mostly on the social front. Let's recap on the misfortunes that shook me the most shall we (remember, I KNOW these are all my fault...). In chronological order, as far as I can remember :
- Loss of a best friend.
- Loss of a romantic relationship.
- The beginning of a severe experimentation phase (the lowest low I ever reached- morally and ethically), of which I am deeply embarrassed and ashamed.
- All but ruin my academic life. The most flunks in the shortest period. Almost, almost got myself kicked out of school.
- Damage my relationship with my mother beyond repair, due to the aforementioned point.
- Damage my relationship with other family members, all having separate, varying reasons...
- The health-related misfortune that has befallen my grandmother.
- Loss of a few good friends, also for separate, varying reasons.
- Most recently, loss of a serious romantic relationship. Ironically, it was the most short-lived, albeit how serious it was (a month, give or take).
- Car accidents on an almost monthly basis, some of which were major. Major enough for my insurance company to "disown" me and ask me to find someone else to insure me. Needless to say, it wasn't easy to find someone who was willing to take me on. (Anyone remember the tears and hot fatayer story?)
This may not seem too grave, but each one of these points has damaged me and shattered my morale in its own way. One blow after another, you can't help but wonder how much more it will take 'til you break down and are beyond repair or consolation. I think I might be very close to that breaking point. None of the aforementioned was any less harsh or devastating than the other on me.
It's too late,
Who's gonna tell you things,
Aren't so great.
You cant go on, thinkin',
Nothings' wrong, but bye,
Who's gonna drive you home,
tonight.?
Who's gonna pick you up,
When You fall?
Who's gonna hang it up,
When you call?
Who's gonna pay attention,
To your dreams?
And who's gonna plug their ears,
When you scream?
You can't go on, thinkin'
Nothings wrong, but bye,
(who's gonna drive you)
(who's gonna drive you)
Who's gonna drive you home, tonight?
(who's gonna drive you home)
(bye baby)
(bye baby)
(bye baby)
(bye baby)
Who's gonna hold you down,
When you shake?
Who's gonna come around,
When you break?
You can't go on, thinkin',
Nothin's wrong, but bye,
(Who's gonna drive you)
(who's gonna drive you)
Who's gonna drive you home, tonight?
(who's gonna drive you home)
Oh, you know you can't go on, thinkin',
Nothin's wrong,
(Who's gonna drive you)
(Who's gonna drive you home)
Who's gonna drive you home, tonight?
(bye baby)
(bye baby)
(bye baby)
The Cars- Drive
This year has been nothing short of catastrophic, mostly on the social front. Let's recap on the misfortunes that shook me the most shall we (remember, I KNOW these are all my fault...). In chronological order, as far as I can remember :
- Loss of a best friend.
- Loss of a romantic relationship.
- The beginning of a severe experimentation phase (the lowest low I ever reached- morally and ethically), of which I am deeply embarrassed and ashamed.
- All but ruin my academic life. The most flunks in the shortest period. Almost, almost got myself kicked out of school.
- Damage my relationship with my mother beyond repair, due to the aforementioned point.
- Damage my relationship with other family members, all having separate, varying reasons...
- The health-related misfortune that has befallen my grandmother.
- Loss of a few good friends, also for separate, varying reasons.
- Most recently, loss of a serious romantic relationship. Ironically, it was the most short-lived, albeit how serious it was (a month, give or take).
- Car accidents on an almost monthly basis, some of which were major. Major enough for my insurance company to "disown" me and ask me to find someone else to insure me. Needless to say, it wasn't easy to find someone who was willing to take me on. (Anyone remember the tears and hot fatayer story?)
This may not seem too grave, but each one of these points has damaged me and shattered my morale in its own way. One blow after another, you can't help but wonder how much more it will take 'til you break down and are beyond repair or consolation. I think I might be very close to that breaking point. None of the aforementioned was any less harsh or devastating than the other on me.
posted by Extinct Dodo at 7:29 PM
11 Comments:
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Good to see you're back up and posting.
Stay wonderful girl.
=( .. so sorry .. bs this is life ..
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I'm surprised you're still standing. I have absolutely no idea what I'm supposed to say in a situation like this but each point was more severe than the one before! I was literally taken aback around 3-4 times reading your post.
I hope it all works out though. Maybe you should go through a detox phase where you just cleanse yourself of everything negative. Try it for a week. It might work out.
*hug*
boo hoo?
well the years almost over and inshala the next one will be much better =)
DODO 7bebty ma b3ad ham ella faraj oo alla ma ybteli ella elle y7ebhom oo inshllh alla y5li ayamk al jaya kilha fra7 oo 9'7ik kil min tjeeh fatra ykoon mkt2eb oo el denya msakra bwjho so wat leeh tz3li nfsek 6ooz fe kil shy derasa ra7 tet5raji ay wgt leeh tz3li nfsek? relationship alff min ytmnaki (re9'ena bel ham oo el ham ma re9'i fena) about ur best frnd am sorry to tell u THERE IS NOT somthing called friends ship anymore tra ya dodo ur best frnd is ur mom oo ur sister 3'ero ensiii oo alla yw3we9' 3lena oo ed3e alla ino yfrejha 9li oo 5liki greeba min alla ya 3mree ummmmmmmmmmmwa7(K)
Girl,
you know I still find that everything is ok. & even great.
You are moving!
That's the main thing. That's better than just to stay on the same place.
If you can move it means that you can move not to the bad side only, but to the good one also.
& if you cry sometimes or feeling out of this world, that's ok, too.
Enjoy it.
& also you know that you did everything with your hands. It means that with the same hands you can build your life. It means that your life depends on you.
You just proved it :)
So when you feel not good, breath well & then say ['netushki].
It's a form of net=no en English.
Netushki to everything which can destroy you & your mood.
Smile, silly little :)
Well
We all go through this, consider it spring cleaning phase for loosing ppl in your life and move on.
What I recommend is to go under the radar for a while recover your strength and muster your troops and come out victorious
tainted female... thank you babes
sozu... no, its only "this is life" if you dont do something about it
adorra... thanks *sobs on your shoulder*. im surprised too really. detox.. what do you recommend?
iverson... aww thank you i love you too. dont forget the salt shaker
anonymous... *sniff*
do0oda.. ameen, allah ysma3 mnik
marzouq... what's sad is that something/someone you cared for so much and so passionately all of a sudden becomes a mere statistic, a mere number on your "out with the old" list. it gets to me.
thanks so much for the optimism. much appreciated :*
wedd... allah la ya7rimny mnich. wallah no bad how things get, you're the only one who really sticks by me through thick and thin. i love you so much ya a'3la naasy :*
sever... couldn't help but laugh at that :p thanks for the words of encouragement gorgeous :*
mosan mosan... yes a spring cleaning is in order, out with the old, in with the new. thank you so much :)
Damn, sorry to read all that. Hopefully you shall rise and overcome, that's what makes us human.
they say what not break you ,, will make you stronger ... next year will be year of happiness and gains enshalla just hang in there dear ;)
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